Waiting and Spontaneity... Not my thing.

Here is the Cullen update!

I couldn't be more ready to not be pregnant anymore. Is it time yet? :)

Today was a very successful doctor's appointment. I went in hoping to plan a date to induce, because that's what we did with Layla, and I got better news than that. My doctor told me since this is my second baby, she thought that my body would do the work on its own before any induction we would schedule. YES! I am 2cm dilated, and 75% effaced, so Cullen is up to something! She helped to speed up the process by "stripping the membranes," hoping to help my body kick into labor soon. As of right now, at 12:30 in the morning (why am I still awake?), I haven't felt any contractions, but am hoping that tomorrow is a different story!

As ready as I am, and we all are, for Cullen to be here, I do have to admit that I would love just a little more time to get my last ducks in a row. Everything is ready from washed clothes to clean bottles. I just need to run a few errands tomorrow, pack a bag for the hospital for me and Cullen, and then one for Layla so she's taken care of while Bobby and I are getting Cullen out! Then he can make his debut!

Certainly, I'm ecstatic at the thought of Cullen being here so soon, but the uncertainty of when just kills me. I know, I know, it's part of pregnancy, but it's hard for me to not have any clue when he'll be here, and oh the waiting!! It's grueling at times. Having a baby is a huge life change, so naturally, I'd love to know exactly when that change is going to happen, since I like things order, haha. The spontaneity of Cullen coming whenever he wants is sure teaching me a lesson in patience, and teaching me that there are just some things I can't plan.

This is such an exciting time in our family's life and I am so happy to be able to share this whole experience with you all. Bobby and I are looking forward to introducing our baby boy to everyone when he arrives! Hopefully soon!

36 weeks of Pregnancy = Please come out soon!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season. January is in full swing, and life keeps moving. It's been awhile since an update, and we know a lot more about Cullen's progress, so I wanted to share what's going on!

I am now going to weekly doctor's appointments to check and see how soon it will be until Cullen is here. A few highlights of the last two appointments...

1) His head is down. Yes! He's getting ready to make his debut :).
2) The doctor says he will likely be a good sized baby, and that my belly is measuring a little big. I'm holding my breath that he isn't so huge that I don't have to have a c-section, though my doctor says she doesn't see that happening. I would absolutely do it in a heartbeat if I had to, but I'd prefer that be the last resort.
3) Because of his size, my doctor moved up the due date to February 8th. Very exciting! It means we get to see him sooner!

These last few weeks to me, is the most exciting part of pregnancy and the hardest. I love the anticipation and preparation, and it's also a huge challenge. These last few weeks drag on, and yet, I know he'll be here in a flash. In no time our life will be the best kind of different it can be. I'm doing what I can to get ready for the transition and all the joys and craziness it will bring.

Physically, this has been the hardest month. Truly, I have no complaints, because I am healthy, and have been blessed with two easy and smooth pregnancies. Being a little winded, light-headed after standing for too long, and not sleeping super well, pales in comparison to any kind of complication, so I am genuinely grateful. I will just be ready for my body to be my own again, and not be so physically demanded of. It comes with the territory, and I know that, but it doesn't take away the joy I feel in thinking about belts, pants that button, and tops I can zip :). FREEDOM!

Layla talks often about "baby Cullen" and Bobby and I can sense there is excitement for her in meeting her "baby sister" (as she calls Cullen). We laugh and try to tell her that SHE is actually the sister and that Cullen is her brother, but there's only so much you can explain; she'll probably just have to figure it out on her own, haha. And it won't take long! We are doing our best to prepare her for Cullen's arrival and are including her in whatever we can, so she knows she is still so important to us. I love talking to her about all the things she can help with and do with "baby Cullen." The other day she got very excited because she discovered they could watch movies together, so she grabbed some of her movies and held them up to my belly telling Cullen what movie it was then hugged my belly. It was one of the sweetest moments, and I really think she is going to love having a companion to play with and love.

As a mother, I never anticipated the guilt and grief I would feel with adding another child to our family. And though, it doesn't even come close to the excitement, there is this sense of loss to this part of our life. Of course, we've never wanted Layla to be an only child, but it's been more emotional than I had planned on it being. I, myself, wouldn't change having a brother for anything and am so glad that we grew up together, so I am confident that Layla will be just fine. I know right when I see Cullen, I will wonder how I ever lived without him, and that's what I'm holding onto. Bobby is just plain excited, which is great! Until I meet our little guy, I am enjoying the time I have with Layla and cherishing the little things with her.

The moment we know more, we'll update you! We can't wait to see Cullen's face and show him off to everyone! Until next time...


Pictures at 35 WEEKS

Christmas Festivites

Happy Holiday Season!

This time of year is so wonderful! Everything about the Christmas season is rich and meaningful. Our family is having lots of fun doing Christmas-y things, and celebrating all this time of the year brings.

Layla has an Advent Calendar that she has been opening a door to everyday. We are constantly amazed at how well she remembers what has been in the doors from days past, and is excited/full of anticipation each morning when she wakes up to see what is in "today's" door. She is definitely starting to understand Christmas more fully (mostly about the presents and sweets), and it has been an absolute delight to watch her enjoy the season.

I can only speak for Bobby and I, but Christmas has a whole different perspective and meaning when you have kids. And in the best way possible. There are few things that bring contentment like seeing your kid(s) be so joyful and happy during this time of year. Layla has such a sweet spirit, and is growing and understanding so much, that it has been amazing to see her love and understand a little bit more about Christmas, and see how her personality comes out in the things we've been doing.

We are now only between 8-10 weeks until Cullen gets here! I'm hoping he wants to come on the earlier end, or that I will be induced, because I am definitely feeling ready to be done being pregnant. It has been such an easy pregnancy, but I think any woman would agree that when you get closer and closer to the end, you are SO ready. I'm definitely there. He is a mover and is constantly kicking or rolling in my belly. It's really amazing. I am beyond excited to see Cullen's face and be able to hold and squeeze him! The really fun thing for me, is that I have so enjoyed experiencing Bobby's excitement in having a boy. He wanted a son so much this time around, that I couldn't be happier to be giving him one. I can't wait to see Bobby be a dad to a son.

Bobby, Layla, and I are looking forward to these next few months with so much to be excited about and get ready for. We are taking things one day at a time, and enjoying what each day brings.

Hopefully you and your loved ones are all enjoying this holiday season!



Our dancer






Layla by the little Christmas trees




All ready to cut the tree down




Layla and Bobby looking for the perfect tree




Us ♥




Bobby and me getting the tree




It was a busy day for Layla girl and time for a nap




Daddy showing Layla how the Advent Calendar works




Layla helping with the ornaments




Layla practicing being a big sister with the baby doll from Nana and Tata




Our silly girl getting ready to make some ornaments




Stir, stir, stir




Layla and Murphy are buddies




Let the sugar cookie making begin




Layla sure loves the cookie dough




Cookie cutter time




Layla had so much fun "painting" the cookies (as she says it)




Operation Cookie Making: Successful

28 Weeks and Counting!

Dear Baby Cullen~

We are overjoyed at the thought of getting to meet you and see your beautiful face for the first time. But, even more overjoyed that you are going to be a part of our family. You have already brought us so much excitement and joy, and we thank God for you already. We are looking forward to learning the ins and outs of your personality, the quirks that only you will possess, and experiencing the richness you are going to so clearly bring to us.

Stay healthy. Keep growing. And know that even though we haven't seen you yet, we love you more than words can say, and are counting down until you are here with us.

Love,
~Daddy, Mommy, and big sister Layla


Here are some "28 weeks along" pictures for you to see...

From Phoenix to Seattle

After 2 weeks of being here, we are relieved to finally be able to say we are settled here in Bellevue. No more boxes to unpack, and no more piles of random things to go through. We are here and planted. Phew!

The trip from Phoenix to Seattle was a 3 day journey. My dad and brother flew into Phoenix to help drive the cars back, so we had lot of fun caravan-ing up the coast with each other. We made a stop at Newport Beach, before we hit the long stretch of California that day, and that was a nice way to start the day. After a quick stop in Medford, Oregon very late that night to sleep for a few hours, we finished our final few hours and pulled in Bellevue that evening. It was SO great to get out of the car and be here safe and sound!

This is what we've been up to since we got here...

Bobby got a job! Both he and I were so pleasantly surprised that he was not only able to find a job in the first 10 days we were here, but find a job that provides the things it does for him and our family. Bobby is going to be working at a company called Auto-Chlor Systems, rebuilding and maintaining the commercial dishwashers they distribute to restaurants, etc. He is excited to be working in Seattle, be doing hands on work, and to be a part of what already seems like a great group of people. The best part of this job is that it's M-F, 8-4:30 and provides our family with full benefits. We haven't had benefits since January, so that in itself is a huge blessing. Bobby was excited to learn that this company has been in business for 60 years, has grown every year, and has never had to lay anyone off. The security and potential this job provides is beyond anything that we could have asked for right away, and I think I speak for both Bobby and I when I say that we feel immensely taken care of. More than we ever expected to be. God is good, and this job is truly a gift.

I am enjoying being at home and not "working." Motherhood is definitely still work, but it's the best kind, and I'm happy to be having slow days with Layla filled with lots of time together. I'm taking in all the moments like that I can, since I know once Cullen gets here, there will be quite a good amount of adjusting we're all going to have to do. We're so looking forward to meeting our little guy, and are preparing for his arrival in February, as much as possible.

It's been a pleasure to connect with friends and catch up on each other's lives. I'm looking forward to more of that in the days and weeks to come. As much as life has changed for all of us over the years, I still feel continually encouraged and loved with the lasting relationships we all have.

Layla is doing really well with potty training. We're not quite at the stage where she can do underwear at night, but during naps, she's successfully kept everything dry. She is also doing pretty well with outings. We make sure to bring extra everything, just in case :). One day at time is all we can do, and Bobby and I are happy with her progress.

We're looking forward to Thanksgiving and sharing that time with family and friends. There have been many times in my life, that I've felt grateful for things, but I do have to say, that I think this year, Bobby and I have such deep appreciation and gratitude for all that's in our life right now. Or maybe such profound awareness of all the things we've been blessed with. It's really fun to feel more grateful then ever before, around the time of Thanksgiving this year. There is something sacred to me about setting this day aside for nothing other than to be in awe and wonder of what God has done and is doing in our lives. This is going to be a wonderful holiday!

That wraps it up for today! Life is good, God is good, and we are being graciously taken care of. I don't think we could ask for anything more.

Until next time!



The beautiful Arizona skyline as we headed west




Newport Beach is just as pretty in the fall




Everyone at the beach




Hello Washington




Too much fun with hair gel




I-90 Bridge. The sky was SO dark!




The best purchase we've made in a long time :). Layla loves her little dvd player!



Loving the Cardinals

Baby and Bellevue

Dearest Family and Friends~

Fall is in the air and it's time for an update! As always, I've waited entirely too long to do an update on our life, BUT here I am now ready to give you the rundown of what's been going in the Cadriel family. And to let you know I hope that the next update won't be another 7 months from now :).

First things first...We are so excited to tell you that our family is growing, and in February 2010, we will have a new baby around! Layla is going to be the big sister to a baby brother, and we are through roof excited that we are having a boy! Especially Bobby, who already has lots of plans for this guy. We feel blessed to be in the "one of each camp." Robert Cullen Cadriel is our little man's name, and we will be calling him "Cullen." It may be vampire inspired, but we love it enough to use it, haha. I've been feeling amazing, and I pray that continues through the remainder of my pregnancy. Only 3 1/2 months left!

In other big news, Bobby and I have decided to move our family back to Bellevue, WA. We are leaving the Phoenix area at the end of October, which is rapidly approaching, and are ready for the new adventures, challenges, and excitement this move is going to bring. The last year and a half in Phoenix has been a wonderful piece of our life's journey together, and we have learned so much during our time here. Though heading back to Seattle is the next extension of our journey, we have learned to be open to what God has in store for us no matter where that is in the future, to never say never, and that as long as we're together (in every sense of the word), we'll be alright wherever we end up. There is so much to miss about Phoenix, and there is definitely sadness and loss in this new transition. We are filled with that sadness/loss and our excitement all at once, and are learning through both of those emotions. God is good though, and has taken care of us and those we love so consistently, that we are confident his love will carry all of us in the future as well. So, here's to Bellevue and our new life there!

We have started the potty training endeavor with Layla, and she is actually doing quite well. Our goal is to have only one in diapers by February, and that won't be Layla :) She is definitely getting the hang of it, and we are planning on going full speed ahead these next few months. It's hard to believe we are already at this phase of life, but time moves fast, and here we are!

Those are the major events in our life over the past few months. Thanks for letting us share them with you!

I hope this fall season is treating you all well! I promise to give you an update as soon as we are settled in the Seattle area!

Thank you for your love!

Happy Fall,
The Cadriel's


Here are a few pictures from the last few months...



Layla loves her kitchen! If only it was real and she could cook for us :)




Bobby and I celebrated 4 years of marriage on September 3rd. We can't believe how fast those 4 years have gone and how much life has happened since then!



Layla girl! She's getting so big!




Layla, excited about her baby brother who will be here soon!
(Stealing the sign idea from the Kortus's)




Baby Cullen!




Fun at Tolmachoff Farm!




Layla and the pumpkins :)




The biggest pumpkin in the patch! :)

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Bobby and I... and some pumpkins, of course.

It's Almost Spring!

I'm sorry it's been so long since I've given you an update! There is a lot to catch up on, so I hope this gets you up to speed with our lives.

We have had a crazy two and a half months. Our lives have been busy and at times overwhelming, but we are taking it one day at a time and trusting that we will be taken care of in the midst of the craziness.

Layla is growing so fast. I know I say that every time I post something, but it's the truth! She is talking and communicating so clearly; understanding and responding to things we say and ask her to do. She is saying a lot of new words and letting us know when she does or doesn't like something. Her birthday is still a few months away, but I find myself amazed that we are going to have a two year old running around soon. Sometimes life goes by too fast! I wish I could freeze time and keep Layla in this phase for awhile. She is amazing!

Bobby and I joined a small group of about 4 other young couples. Though Bobby's work schedule is sometimes unpredictable and we have had to miss a few weeks, we are genuinely grateful for the relationships we are forming and the growth we feel like we will receive from this group. Our church, Christ's Church of Scottsdale, is wonderful. We feel like it's exactly where we need to be and are so thankful for the way God provided this church for us. We hope to get more involved and meet even more people.

We are loving Phoenix more and more. Or maybe I should say that I am loving Phoenix more and more :). The weather is starting to heat up again. Slowly, which is good. We're not in the 100's yet, thank goodness, but will be there within the next 6-8 weeks. The high 70's and low 80's are what we get to wake up to and enjoy right now. This is the perfect time for me. If any visitors want to come to see us, now is when Arizona is at its best!

We will be going through a big transition in the next few months, with trying to find a new place to live. Our lease is up in June and though we love our apartment, we would like to move closer to Bobby's family and to the things that we have started doing. Please pray for the right place to come along and that the moving process and details are simple and smooth.

Thanks for your continued friendships and love! We hope you are all doing well!

Here are few pictures of Layla and our family, so you can see what we've been up to...




Our little "Layla-bug" in her new ladybug towel. Thanks Gainer's!




We taught Layla how to say, "Go Cards" every time she saw anything Cardinals. This picture is her cheering on her team.




Bobby was beyond excited that this year is team made it to the Super Bowl! Here were are with the NFC West Trophy. It was so fun to go see it!



Bobby and Layla waiting to see the NFC West Trophy. Twins!




Layla loves her hair clips, but doesn't keep them in for long. However, this particular day, she wanted ALL of her hair clips in her hair. It was hilarious!



Then she wanted them out :)